Once long held beliefs were shattered with resounding consequences. Since June 7, 6:28m, 2010; my life has been changed forever more. Never again shall I have the hope for the future or trust for anyone. Never again will the once lasting smile cross my lips with optimism. My faith has been tested and lost.
Whereas once I walked with the people looking toward a good future, I now walk among them tarnished by reality. A lost soul just waiting for my time to end.
Since 2000 I have heralded a blog somewhere. Always to be active and always to reach for the golden ring. I had faced much, battled much and always came away sure there would be a better day to come. But this last June one person was able to topple all that and toss me into an abyss. When I finally climbed out scarred, hurt, in shock, the world is no longer colorful and inviting. I now see it for the gray and dark place it is. it surprises me that one person could not only bring this blog to a standstill, but strip away so much of me as well. How did I ever let one person so near that they could destroy so much with such relative ease?
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