The Unflinching Direction of Dispair

You know, when things look their darkest and the last vestige of hope is fading over the horizon, we sometimes settle on the thoughts that we let slip by without the realization they should have enjoyed at the time. Such is the vain attempts for stability when all else begins to fail us. For me, such thoughts focused on a moment now just a mere three years ago. A moment locked in the unchanging time of my memory. Oh if only I could go back to this moment and pull myself aside to counsel myself about what my future will hold... Just such a conversation would have spared me of this time. Had I known... Had I known then, such a time as I now face would not have happened. Where is that mythical time machine now?? Why do I not see that ugly blue police box materializing?